Yesterday at church Dave preached about initiative. He charged us to dream big, to know that God loves us, and to put our trust in that love as we plan our new year. He used this quote by Annie Dillard as a challenge to us for the new year:
“How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives.”
In thinking about her words, I recognize that U spend many of my days worrying about what the next day will bring. The difficulty in living is worrying about what may come next. How can I expect to live a fulfilling life if my days are spent invested not in the day I am living, but in the next day, the next month, or the next year.
Along with a variety of other rebirths, I am going to try to live more in the moment. I have tried so many times to change my ways, and I think I have failed for many reasons. One reason is that I try to derive my strength from people rather than from God. I realize that I need human support in my endeavors, but I also realize that I need to pull my strength from the love of the Creator not the created. I am going to focus on how I spend my days, so that my life will proceed from the way my days are spent. I want my life to matter.
My friend Sarah and I went to see the movie Atonement and it was a good movie. It was beautiful, well filmed, and moderately well acted. The music was fantastic: the composer used a type writer as a percussion instrument, which gave an interesting twist to the sound of it. I am going to attempt to read the book this summer or squeeze it in this school year. I’ll let you know how it compares.