Category Archives: Politics

A Gift Idea

Here is a great gift idea—not for me—for someone you love. Not only can you feel good about the product, but you can feel good about the creator of it. Beautiful on many accounts, as far as I am concerned.

This is why …

I love my pastor. He started the sermon today with this video:

Is this really necessary?

This may not be.

This definitely is.

Drag Shows, Winter Break, Hard Times

My papers have all been written, and all I have left to do is grade things for my students. My grades are due Monday morning by 10:00, but I hope to have them finished by Friday at 5 so I can help Drew with last minute details for the Drag Show on Monday. My goal is to be as helpful as possible without getting in the way. I have never been behind the scenes at a show, so I think it will be pretty cool. Becs and I are going to go out for dinner with some of my old friends before the show, and then I am going to go out to celebrate the end of the semester afterwards! This semester has been a real challenge, but I am happy to say that with the exception of the past three weeks, I have enjoyed it. I think I even learned something!

One of my goals over break is to read. Incessantly. I already have my sights on some Anton Chekov and a few liberation theology texts. I also need to start collecting Toni Morrison texts and some of the other books I will need for next semester. I figure I can get them for less over break when the undergrads, who were required to buy them, sell them back to get money for the holidays. Maybe I can profit from someone’s lack of interest in good literature. I know my list for my independent study will be pretty expensive by itself. I still owe my little brother some cash, too.

Another goal is to write. Every day. I would love to have enough material generated by the time I graduate to begin revising and editing in order to publish a memoir. I don’t know whether it will happen, or if my stories are interesting for anyone to purchase if it does happen, but I can try. I want my break to be a celebration of reading and writing and out of school goodness. I hope to do some experimental poetry stuff, too.

The third goal: running. Ever since I got sick with what I believe was mono—and since the doctor at the health center let me diagnose myself, I guess I am right—I haven’t been able to run. I have lacked the energy to do much of anything. Over break, I can nap if I need to, so I plan to start on Monday morning with a little jog and take it from there. I am hoping to run the Indy-Mini in May. If I don’t run it, I will walk again!

Finally, I have all sorts of household chores I need to accomplish, like cleaning out the fish tank, writing to my sponsored children, and playing with dogs. I am sure Bec would love it, too, if I folded my laundry and cleaned up my library. Things get a little chaotic near the end of the semester. I forget what I am doing. I lose my head a little bit.

Times are hard. I just finished my last paper; it was about gleaning or foraging. Basically, what I learned is that we throw away a shit ton of products that can be still be safely used or consumed; commodities with little or no defect find their way to dumpsters to be piled in landfills. I was going to buy myself a new jacket with my Christmas and I still might, but I think before that I want to buy a little wagon to load full of scavenged items from the dumpsters I can walk to. I am thinking that I live within walking distance of Dollar Stores, a Hostess outlet, the Mall, and KMart. Maybe I could even scavenge a new coat from Rural King? Maybe they throw them away for minor blemishes. I also live near Panera, and I hear they throw out their day-old bread. I wonder if Concannon’s throws out their day-old donuts. We’ll see if I have the fortitude to try it.

When I was in high school, Jaymes and I used to dive for potato chips at Seyfert’s distribution center. Usually the bags were still sealed and they were marked out on the date we went, so the chips were still fresh. The books I read suggested that things like yogurt and cheese were good months after their dates indicated otherwise. I am not willing to try it out. I have a weird palate when it comes to dairy: only the most pristine will suffice. It’s the mold factor and the soured factor. I just can’t do it. If I had to, I could. But, I don’t have to—yet.

Every time I turn on the television, look at Internet news services, or pick up a newspaper the economic news is worse than it was the time before. I wonder how low our country will go before it rights itself again. I wonder when I will have to start standing in line for bread or for the Second Harvest Food Bank truck. I wonder how we will pull through. I know the sentiment is that our country has come through worse, but I am not sure if we even know the worst of this yet. I am not trying to be pessimistic, but I want to go into the next few economic years with my eyes wide open. After all, I will be on the job market and Ball State has even put a freeze on hiring. I am trying not to get too scared or worried or concerned, but it doesn’t look good for a person in higher education right now.

I guess this is where faith comes in. Not my strong suit.

*edit* I am going to try to ween myself away from the computer over break. I recognize that I have become addicted, or at least obsessive-compulsive, about Facebook, email, and this blog. I plan to write in my blog every day, but I will not be checking my email regularly. I am going to try to limit it to Wednesdays and Saturdays. If you need to get in contact with me in a timely manner, please call me. If you don’t have my cell phone number, then you’ll just have to wait until I check my email. Similarly, next semester I will have class on Tuesdays and Thursdays, so I will nto be checking my email except for on those days and Saturday.

Signs of the Times: No More Second Harvests

“When you reap the harvest of your land, do not reap to the very edges of your field or gather the gleanings of your harvest. Do not go over your vineyard a second time or pick up the grapes that have fallen. Leave them for the poor and the alien. I am the LORD your God.”—Leviticus 19:9-10

I walked the dogs through McCullough Park this morning. I like this route, which you know, because it goes along the river. What you may not know is that I also love it because of the train tracks: the path passes under a trestle and then crosses the same tracks on another street. Most people in Muncie deal with the trains, but I relish them because as I was growing up a train track ran next to our property. One of my favorite memories is standing at the railroad crossing in front of my house with my mother. I think my brother was in a stroller, but we were all walking to the library downtown. When I tell some people we used to walk from our house to the library, they gasp and choke about what a far walk it is. The walk seems much longer than it is. In reality it is about a mile and a half, which I suppose is far in a time when people thinking walking to the corner to buy a soda is a long walk. So much for that tangential thought. I can remember standing at that particular crossing many times. Each time we would wait for the caboose, so we could wave at the worker riding at the back of the train. Of course, this was when the engineers would actually wave at small children (or a maniacally waving 34 year old) as they stood with their arms above their heads screaming into the louder scream of the horn. My brother used to plug his ears with his fingers until he couldn’t stand it anymore, and then he would pull his fingers from his ears, squeeze his head between his upper arms to plug his ears, and wave his arms from his elbows to his hands over his head like a deranged sea creature. But he would laugh as the engineer always waved back. I guess this is all really unrelated to what I really want to write about, but maybe it isn’t because my life was so much simpler then. All of our lives were simpler then. I am not saying they were all peaches and cream or roses and chocolates, but there seemed to be a different spirit in the air. I could be wrong. This could be nostalgia clouding my perception.

This morning, as I came out from under the trestle, I noticed cars. There weren’t two or three, there were many. I noticed as I walked further along the path that were so many they were wrapped all the way around No Name Road to Highland. Possibly they went further than that, but I couldn’t see past the hill that goes up to the stop sign. I thought maybe the firemen, or some other fraternal order, was having a pancake breakfast in the meeting house by Martin Luther King Boulevard, but the lights weren’t on. As I got closer, I realized that everyone was sitting in their cars, or they were bundled up sitting on little stools. They seemed to be waiting in line. Mind you, I walked the dogs at about 730AM. In fact, the woman in what I realized to be the front of the line, was in a coat and a blanket with a couple of push carts, like movie directors always make bag-ladies push, even though real street people use every other kind of cart because they are more sturdy. The kind she had were the ones with two big wheels in the back, with the cart being shaped of stuff that looks like cheap farm fencing. They sell these carts in $5 souvenir shops for tourists to carry home their plunder. There she sat on her front-of-the-line throne, wrapped like a queen in her royal robe. I wondered what time she got there in order to be the first in this long line of cars. She was the only person I saw who sat out in the elements without a car to get warm in, and eventually, the car parked behind her invited her in for a sit.

I kept walking, and shortly bumped into a man who was dressed in sweat pants, Velcro tennis shoes, and a flannel button-up shirt over a sweatshirt for a coat. Beneath the hood of a sweatshirt, his baseball cap poked out. With the exception of my jeans, my Carhartt knock-off coat, and the fact that my shoes tie instead of Velcro, we were dressed quite similarly. I think his insulated flannel shirt was newer than my coat, but we looked like we both shop at reuse clothing stores and Rural King. He was smoking a cigarette, probably a Basic or some other generic brand, because it stunk like burning refuse, not like the sweet smelling burn of a Nat Sherman or even a Camel or Marlboro. He hadn’t shaved in a couple of days, or maybe bathed either. When he saw me and the dogs coming up the path, he walked toward us to my warning of the dogs’ ill behavior. When he burst into smile and said to me, “I can’t even walk one seven month old terrier. Here you are walking all three with no problem,” I knew he was a friend. His front teeth were missing, so he gummed his cigarette as he let all three dogs lick his face and sniff him. “They can smell my dogs!” he said. I was sure they could. After talking with him about dogs and the like for about ten minutes or so, I asked him what was going on. He didn’t hesitate, but I could tell he was a little—not embarrassed, that’s too strong of a word—humbled by my asking. He said, “Second Harvest is giving out food.” I smiled, “Oh, I wondered.” I asked what time they were to start giving it out. He told me nine o’clock. “Nine o’clock?” I asked, “Why is everyone here so early.” He said that in order to get the good stuff, people got there early. I wondered to myself if they ever ran out. He played with the dogs a bit more as we said our good-byes. “I have to get back in line, or I might lose my turn.”

On my way home, I made sure to look under the bridge on Elm Street to see if Tom was sleeping there in his thick blue sleeping bag with his stuff piled neatly around him. I was going to tell him about the food trucks. I couldn’t find him, so I assumed he either knew and got up early to go wait, or maybe he spent the night wandering around talking to people no one else can see. I hoped he found somewhere warm to sleep. I wondered if his family had come to pick him up this year, like they didn’t last year. I hoped that someone put him up in a hotel, like someone did this summer. I hope.

There are a few things I am thinking about all this:

  1. Do children still marvel at trains? Do children still marvel?
  2. Were we excited about small things because that was all we had? Would we have been as excited about a caboose if we had had cable?
  3. Will people be so courteous to each other on Black Friday as the people in line waiting for food were today? Will Black Friday be black?
  4. What does it say about our economy that people are willing to get in line before 730AM to wait for hours for a Food Pantry truck? What does it say that people waiting in line smoke and own pets?
  5. Why can’t we figure out a way to get dental care, health care, vision care for all people? For that matter, what about ensuring that children get adequate nutrition?
  6. Do food banks run out of food? How many extra cans of food do we all have in our cabinets? Stuff we have purchased that we will never really eat?
  7. Whatever happened to taking care of our neighbors? What ever happened to helping each other out? When was the last time I invited someone to dine with me?
  8. Would I ask Tom to come to Thanksgiving dinner? Would I let him bathe in my tub? Would I let him use my towels? Would I? Would you? Would your church?
  9. Do I leave my fields and my vineyards ripe for the gleaning? What does that look like in today’s culture?