Blue Bottles and Papers

I decided to come a bit early to the Blue Bottle to meet with my friend Chelsy. We aren’t meeting until 10AM, so I told myself I would get some things from school done before she gets here. I am processing some of my own life, here and now, before I get started reading articles upon articles. I have decided I need to get one paper and my annotated bibliography finished this weekend even if it kills me. Once I get Bob’s paper finished, I can then do my other two papers and be finished with yet another semester of graduate school coursework. I will then have two summer courses, and two regular semesters left to go. I am ecstatic!

This summer I am going to try to narrow down the texts I will focus on for my dissertation. I think I am going to try to select texts from my various areas of interest (Contemporary American, Contemporary British, Victorian, and Realism/Naturalism) and then use a theoretical tie to bind them all together into several cohesive chapters. That, at least, is what I am thinking of doing right now. We’ll see when the time comes if it actually works out that way!

I realized as I looked back over my last few blogs, that I have sort of left God behind somehow. I assure you, that for once in my life, it wasn’t intentional. [They] just sort of slipped through my fingers somehow. I think that happens every semester in some way, but this semester it started with Lent. I wasn’t really in a Lent-y mood and it degenerated from there. In the past, I have had some bone of contention or some beef with God, but recently I just find myself thinking I can do things without God’s help.

I appreciated our sermon this past Sunday because it reminded me that we need to take on tasks, visions, dreams that we cannot possibly achieve without God’s help. David reminded us that too frequently Christians are comfortable in our set ways, our little ruts we trudge along in, and we don’t do much out of the ordinary. And how many churches do you think heard a sermon in which the pastor compared theology to string theory? I am sure that in Muncie there may have been one other one, but outside of that…I suppose I should pick up String Theory for Dummies if there is such a thing, so I can understand the entire analogy he was trying to make.

Really, things in life are chaotic but good. So I look forward.

o poem of the day

Pastoral
by Jennifer Chang

Something in the field is
working away. Root-noise.
Twig-noise. Plant
of weak chlorophyll, no
name for it. Something
in the field has mastered
distance by living too close
to fences. Yellow fruit, has it
pit or seeds? Stalk of wither. Grass-
noise fighting weed-noise. Dirt
and chant. Something in the
field. Coreopsis. I did not mean
to say that. Yellow petal, has it
wither-gift? Has it gorgeous
rash? Leaf-loss and worried
sprout, its bursting art. Some-
thing in the. Field fallowed and
cicada. I did not mean to
say. Has it roar and bloom?
Has it road and follow? A thistle
prick, fraught burrs, such
easy attachment. Stem-
and stamen-noise. Can I lime-
flower? Can I chamomile?
Something in the field cannot.

Something in the field cannot.

Something cannot breathe
smothered under the ground
as it is by the sod.
Little eyes and little claws
scratching blindly at the roots.
Gnawing noises, sawing noises.
Slip up. Away. No lawn mowing
above the tiny beings. Head down
the blade swings fast. Vole. Mole.
What’s the difference? How are they
the same? Tunnel. Tunnel. Dirt and roots.
Slip through, slimy little skin.
Blind eyes. Claws. Long claws.
Moth balls choke. The smell.
We cannot breathe with those balls
in our tunnels. We retreat.

A Weekend Alone…

I am going to be by myself until Sunday night. I get sort of sad and disoriented when I am alone in my big, old house, but I know I will get lots of schoolwork and reading done that I might normally put off because I could find better things to do. I am sure I could procrastinate by walking dogs, or something else, but I have decided to put my nose to the grindstone and get my African-American literature paper finished, and get my annotated bibliography finished. That should take me until Bec comes home on Sunday.

I am excited to spend Friday evening with my brother, who is going to go to the English department awards banquet with me. We are going to have celebratory beers afterward, so what could be a better start to a hard-working weekend?!

another day another poem by someone else

A Pot of Tea

by Richard Kenney

Loose leaves in a metal ball
Or men in a shark cage steeping,
Ideas stain the limpid mind
Even while it’s sleeping:

Ginseng or the scent of lymph
Or consequences queasing
Into wide awareness, whence,
Like an engine seizing

Society remits a shudder
Showing it has feeling,
And the divers all have shaving cuts
And the future’s in Darjeeling—

Blind, the brain stem bumps the bars
Of the shark cage, meanwhile, feeding,
And the tea ball’s cracked, its leaves cast
To catastrophic reading:

Ideas are too dangerous.
My love adjusts an earring.
I take her in my arms again
And think of Hermann Göring,

And all liquidities in which
A stain attracts an eating,
And of my country’s changing heart,
And hell, where the blood is sleeting.

A Princess and Her Pee

Princess dressed to attend the ball.
Trouble is brewing, pain is steeping.
She is troubled inside her mind—
Will she survive, or like her colleague, end up sleeping?

Wracking cough of mucus and lymph,
All around people are, at the sound, queasing.
From here they wonder whence
she commences her seizing.

Princess expectorates with a shudder
and onlookers get a sneaking feeling
that in her spare time she cuts.
Did she pick up consumption in Darjeeling?

After the ball she hits the bars,
picks up a few guys and proceeds in feeding
every stereotype of her caste.
And the reader persists her reading.

The behavior of the princess is dangerous.
Don’t share her necklaces or earrings.
She goes to the free clinic to get tested again—
her monthly voluntary goring.

The test is necessary. By which
disease is dying. Which is eating
her body, her mind, her heart?
Her hopes are dashed by diseased sleeting.

today, today, dah dah dah dah dah dah

Line Poem
by Caroline Knox

Long jetty, long shell-racked jetty, cracked warped planks.

Beautiful fish, beautiful sea-bass poached with an August tomato,
on an ironstone plate.

A snake’s slough, a snake’s spinal cord, a dry-rot stump.

A twill tape measure, an audiotape cassette unspooled and puckered,
shining.

Agate prayer beads, kazoos, whistles, rattles.

A bike chain and a bungee cord. A möbius strip and a broccoli elastic.

Split vanilla pod inset with paltry-looking flat oily brown seeds.

Egg-and-dart molding of vitreous fake sandstone. Contrails,
mares’ tails, mackerel sky.

List Poem

Old comic book, a Wonder Woman comic book, soiled pages.

Pink worm, a slippery earthworm cracked and dry, in a plastic sandwich bag.

A raccoon skin cap, a rabbit’s foot key chain, a piece of driftwood.

A crinkled dress pattern, several eight tracks labels faded, dusty.

Knotted prayer rope, song flute, marbles, music box.

An airplane gear and a silky cord. An infinity symbol and two pieces of velcro.

Soybean shell burst with beans missing and husk brown and dry.

Papier-mache volcano with soda-vinegar explosions. Sun dogs,
neighbor’s dogs, Red Dog Saloon.