a peom a dya

Yesterday I read some poetry by Allen Ginsburg’s lover, and it had a lot of misspellings. I embrace that given the fact that I don’t spell well; actually, I spell just fine at a fourth grade level! I am not sure incorrect spelling takes anything away from the poem, so here it is:

I empty the garbage on the tabol.
I invite thousands of bottles into my room, June bugs I call them.
I use the typewritter as my pillow.
A spoon becomes a fork before my eyes.
Bums give all their money to me.
All I need is a mirror for the rest of my life.
My frist five years I lived in chicken coups with not enough
bacon.
My mother showed her witch face in the night and told stories of
blue beards.
My dreams lifted me right out of my bed.

Nathan

I picture him insolent, insurrectionist
chopping wood
riding an ATV
driving a tractor
sunburned by Midwestern sun.

They used him unstable, uniformed
shooting hot bullets
bobbling inside a helicopter
driving a Humvee
leathered by new desert heat.

Once he asked in jest to break
up the Church instruction:
Where do babies come from?

I should have answered
in seriousness: Nathan,
we should be asking where do they go?

I remember him tall, lanky
wearing tight, cowboy jeans
shoveling snow for old women
buying two-liters of soda
instructing others on monetary conservation.

They turned him thick, manly
ensconced in Marine blues
touting an agenda of hate
pushing a deadly rhetoric
teaching others to fear our bad decisions.

Just for Abster!

Could you email me please? I lost your phone number, and I only have Ed’s. I called you for your birthday, but I am not sure if Edwin actually let you listen to it or not?!? Oh, yeah, Hi, Ed!!!! Oh, and Bec got you something really cute, so could you send me your new address, too?

A poem a day…

…the poems flying amid the jukebox
music, the olding Beats and the Baby Beats and the commies,
the surrealists, the anarchists, the socialists, the jazzmen, the ultra
screwballs, the walk-in weirdoes, the beautiful women begun and
developed here, and the tots, those fooblezeegs, always so welcome
and alive at this street level…

Pizza Prostitute

Shifting pizza from oven to cardboard circle:
slice chop: cutting counter to cardboard box:
snap crunch: box closed: ring up on cash
register: with some creative license plays
the intro to Pink Floyd’s Money.

Juke box johns slide coin after coin
into her slick slot: she sings Fancy
and Me and Bobby McGee. Lights swoon
to music humming out of her bowels:
discs click click change and spin a tune.

No commies, Beats, or surrealists here:
only want-to-be cowboys homophobes
blue collars lingering waiting listening:
Fucking faggots, Jews, pinkos: this from a man
in dirty jeans plaid flannel and trucker cap:
not worn for style.

Five years I tolerate it:
talking judging the world
outside these imperceptible walls: holding us
inside progress outside: slip change discs:
Good-Bye Earl.

Here no women grow beautiful: but haggard
they become. Two Taylor boys slide skin past skin
under the table: walk-in weirdoes still come condemn:
no socialists no anarchists: the fight well removed:
2+2=5. And she sings: Yes, I Am!

Hillary: Here and Gone

I should have gone to hear Hillary, but there is something about the idea of my house being right across the river that assuages any bit of regret I could have had. The facts that I had police circling my house, and that our road was blocked off so that her bus could enter Muncie Central’s parking lot, sort of brought home the state of our states. We are under constant surveillance, and that isn’t a good thing! I still love some Hillary. Unfortunately, Becky and I will be canceling each other out in the primary, but I guess at least we are both voting in the same primary, which is nice. I have several friends/students who got their pictures taken with Hillary last night. They both volunteer and work for her campaign, something I said I would do, but I don’t have time to do. I am glad I can live vicariously through them.

Today, I am grading, reading, and going to Ivanhoe’s for dinner. I NEED a milkshake! Yeah, I’m cheating the animals!

The Friday that Hillary Came to Muncie

This may sound bad, but I think I am skipping out on one of the greatest loves of my life, Hillary Clinton. She is going to be in Muncie tonight and I don’t think I am going. I have fifty annotated bibliographies to grade, and I have to speak on a panel in the morning about becoming a graduate student at BSU. I am sure Hillary will be fantastic, but I am not sure that I can squeeze her into my schedule.

I am ready for this semester to be over, and I am sure my students are as well. We are working on their big research paper, and we are struggling along together. They struggle because they don’t want to write an 8-10 page paper with much less direction than they have been given before, and I struggle because I have never taught college students before. I want them to have some amount of ownership in their papers, but I feel as if they want me to tell them what to write and how. I am trying to teach them process, with an acceptable product, but they want the key to creating an A product. The key is honing down a process that you can live with! If you excel at the process, the product will usually be one that is acceptable and just needs a few adjustments.

I got a tattoo in San Francisco. It is a piece of wheat toast, a strawberry jam heart, and some mint leaves. I love wheat toast; in fact, it is one of my favorite breakfasts. The mint leaves are there to add a bit of color. I plan to get a half-sleeve done on that arm eventually. I want it to be able to be covered by long sleeves, but show when I wear a polo or a t-shirt. This tattoo is a good start. I got it done at Lyle Tuttle’s Shop in SF. Tuttle has tattooed several famous people: Cher and Janis Joplin to name two of them. He doesn’t do tattooing anymore, and he sold his shop to another owner, but he still speaks at conferences and pops into the shop occasionally. My tattoo artist’s name was Doug, and he did an excellent job on it. The jelly looks shiny, and the toast looks like wheat bread. I love it. I think it might be my favorite tattoo yet!

I haven’t gotten my pictures developed yet, but I am going to take them tonight and drop them off at Walmart so that I can pick them up next week when I get paid. I am going to get them all put on CD, because I want to use the pictures for gifts for friends and family. I thought they would be more worthwhile than wasting money on souvenirs. Hopefully, they turn out well. I think I may have one that I will want to blow up to hang on the wall—Golden Gate Bridge in the sunset on the way back from Alcatraz Island. There is even a sailboat in the picture. I hope it comes out as good as I think it will.