Housewarming

Tomorrow night is our housewarming party and I am already getting anxious. I am always anxious when I am having a party. While I love to have people at my house and I love to be with my friends, so many people at once is a bit overwhelming for me. As I get older I get more and more socially anxious. I think that my fear is not being able to spend the time with people that I think they deserve. I have neglected my friends for a while, so that I could work constantly on my paper, at the BUX, and so that I could move. I wish I could have a separate party for each of them so that I could show them how important they are to me. I miss my friends. I have been struggling with whether or not I should quit at SBUX. I love the whole coffee culture, but I need to focus on school. I think I will quit, and then I can substitute teach next semester on our breaks from school. I am trying to save enough money so that I won’t have to work next summer. I want to be able to go canoe camping. I am also hoping to go on about a two-week long road trip with Sarah and David. We are not sure where we are going, but we are going. Finally, I hope Kellie decides to buy my car. I would love to get rid of it—it would be one less thing to worry about.