I really needed the weekend away. I came back and I feel rejuvenated, and ready to go. I am really excited to go on vacation with my family, and I have decided rather than to plan it like crazy like I usually do, I would just schedule the big things: the Cubs/White Sox game, Wicked, Fireworks, the Brewery tour, and the like, but the rest, we should just do at our leisure. What is a vacation when it is planned out like crazy anyway? I need to work on some pieces for the Fat Cats, and I need to read Mansfield Park. I like this relaxed, I-don’t-have-to-do-anything-if-I-don’t-want-to life. I just want to be. At the retreat we prayer what is called a retractive prayer. I can’t remember it exactly, but the final word left in the retraction was “BE,” reminding us to just be. There were six words initially and the first one taken off was love, and there was something about sacred hearts, but I don’t remember. It was beautiful, though, and I remember thinking to myself: “Self, you should write that down or you’ll never remember it.” But I didn’t. Alas.
I checked out all the books I know that I will need for next semester’s courses, so I need to just start reading them. I will have all my creative writing course books out of the way, so I can focus on my literature and theory class readings. I am trying to get some good starts on two creative nonfiction pieces as well. I am hoping to get almost everything finished for that class this summer. I will only one required class left to take in the spring, and a directed reading, then comps, and the dissertation and I will be finished! So it looks like I should be finished by Spring or Fall of 2010. I hope by then I can find a real job, but I shouldn’t borrow that stress just now. I need to concentrate on finishing my classes first!