no poems for days

My creative juices are sluicing out research papers.

My creative juices sluice over the sides of the damaged dixie cup of my mind.
They spill onto the pages of research papers that have ne redemptive value.
My thoughts spill out in cyberkinetic ink on pages that don’t exist in the real world.
They print in black on white paper spitting out from a laser printer. That can’t be good
for the environment that already overflows from trash and refuse.
No refuge for the academic. No respite for the mentally exhausted. No sleep.
Ideas slip chasm over chasm, rapids in the river of dreams. Slipping, sliding
smashing my ideations of a low-carbon footprint.

From Now Until Next Friday at 5PM

You don’t know me. You can’t see me. I can’t have coffee with you, unless you are Sarah Marty. I will be the incognito English graduate student who blows you off. I am starting my first paper today, writing my second one on Thursday, and writing my third one on Saturday. Once I finish those papers, I will be grading like a fiend so I can turn back their research projects to my students during their finals slots, and get a whole new batch to read by Friday! I am overjoyed.

I think for the most part this semester went really well. I am not incredibly overwhelmed, and my projects seem manageable enough, so I think I can finish without a crisis. My students filled out their evaluations yesterday, which makes me a little ticky, but I think I will survive. I learned a lot this semester about what I want my composition classes to look like form here on out, so what could be better than that. As always, I thanked my students for being my guinea pigs and doing it with a smile.

But for now, you don’t know me. I am invisible woman. You can’t even hear me roar.

It’s Official: Milton is a Progressive Misogynist

“Thus Eve with count’nance blithe her story told;
But in her cheeks distemper flushing glowed.
On th’ other side, Adam, soon as he heard
The fatal trespass done by Eve, amazed,
Astonied stood and blank, while horror chill
Ran through his veins, and all his joints relaxed;
From his slack hand the garland wreathed for Eve
Down dropped, and all the faded roses shed:
Speechless he stood and pale, till thus at length
First himself he inward silence broke.” —Paradise Lost, Book 9 lines 886-895

The thing I hate about Milton is that he sort of grows on you. Like mold. How can you not love that Adam spent his time in the garden weaving flower garlands for Eve’s hair. So I will give Will that Milton may be progressive, but I’m holding onto the misogynist part.

today’s missive

Cherry Tomatoes
by Sandra Beasley

Little bastards of vine.
Little demons by the pint.
Red eggs that never hatch,
just collapse and rot. When

my mom told me to gather
their grubby bodies
into my skirt, I’d cry. You
and your father, she’d chide—

the way, each time I kicked
and wailed against sailing,
my dad shook his head, said
You and your mother.

Now, a city girl, I ease one
loose from its siblings,
from its clear plastic coffin,
place it on my tongue.

Just to try. The smooth
surface resists, resists,
and erupts in my mouth:
seeds, juice, acid, blood

of a perfect household.
The way, when I finally
went sailing, my stomach
was rocked from inside

out. Little boat, big sea.
Handful of skinned sunsets.

Green Grapes

Little eyeballs
Tiny membrane bound fruits
Seed-bearing orbs

a day of poetry

Father’s Day
by James Tate

My daughter has lived overseas for a number
of years now. She married into royalty, and they
won’t let her communicate with any of her family or
friends. She lives on birdseed and a few sips
of water. She dreams of me constantly. Her husband,
the Prince, whips her when he catches her dreaming.
Fierce guard dogs won’t let her out of their sight.
I hired a detective, but he was killed trying to
rescue her. I have written hundreds of letters
to the State Department. They have written back
saying that they are aware of the situation. I
never saw her dance. I was always at some
convention. I never saw her sing. I was always
working late. I called her My Princess, to make
up for my shortcomings, and she never forgave me.
Birdseed was her middle name.

My Father’s Daughter

Forever known as my father’s daughter—
so much less than royalty. How do we
communicate? In tiny sips spilled
from chapped lips and dreams
shared but never realized.

Wind whips my hair and skin
and guards drop when winter stops.
Would be killed birds
rescued by you
and written by me with bad pen
into a new situation.

They dance, you dance, we dance
and break convention. You never called
me Princess, but you always forgave, and
gave birdseed.