Bea Arthur

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Grace-Filled Moments

Please respond with a moment of grace that you have experienced or given. Or post your favorite quote about or articulation of grace.

Reading. Baking. Flying. Grace.

Tonight is our annual graduate student creative writing reading, Penscape. Wow! That is a mouthful. Anyway. I am reading along with nine or ten of my colleagues. It will be good. It has to be good. Each of us were asked to read for ten to twelve minutes. I am reading three flash nonfiction pieces, a letter, and a poem. Sort of a mixed bag. I hope people read somethings we all haven’t already read or heard. I always hate it when that happens. You workshop with people and then you get to hear all those same pieces again. I mean, it is pretty cool to see how they revised, but it isn’t cool if it is the same piece you already read.

Two nights ago I spent about four hours baking. One of my professor’s kids is severely allergic to everything. By everything I mean eggs, dairy, and nuts, so I had fun making many snacks that she could partake in. We are also having punch. You know that Hawaiian Punch, Ginger Ale, Sherbet fiasco that they serve at every gathering everywhere until people are old enough to drink beer. That’s the punch! I think there will be some coffee too.

I think the baking runs in the genes, because my mom is baking her fool head off this afternoon. One of her friends asked her to make cookies to use as the favors for her wedding. My mom is making 150 chocolate chip cookies and 150 peanut butter cookies. Right now.

Tomorrow we leave to go to Minneapolis for Andy and Claire’s wedding. Not only do I get to leave Muncie for a few days, I get to spend it with people I don’t see very frequently. I don’t like to fly. I will never fly on United again. It is official: they are charging fat people more for their seats.

I am working on some new writing. Trying to write an essay about grace is hard. Really. Hard. I am going to ask people to post their most grace-filled moments as responses on a special post here. Maybe I will tell them they can send them by email, too. But I want this essay to reflect all types of faiths and non-faiths and the way they exhibit grace. I know what grace should look like in a Christian ethic. I wonder what it looks like in the secular world for people who don’t share my beliefs. I mean I know some stories, but I hope that people will share theirs.

Also, my dissertation has taken on new form. I hope to write about the preaching woman, the food-serving woman, and the way they both implement a certain morality or ethic of grace and redemption in slave-narratives. Every time I articulate my ideas they become more concrete. which makes me happy. Now to press on and find the “so-what” in that, Lauren.

Flexibility. Ah.

Menstruation. Syllabi. New Leaves.

Dear Eve:

Why did you do it? Why did you eat the fruit? I could understand if it would have been a watermelon, a banana, or even some strawberries.  Weren’t there pineapples and mangoes growing in the garden? Couldn’t you have just been happy with a coconut now and then?

Apples are just not that good. They are pretty, usually red, and possibly shiny, but you are not a raccoon or a crow. I hope, at least, that it wasn’t a Granny Smith, unless you had some caramel sauce.

Did you have cramps, a headache, a backache, or constipation? How did you stop the flow? Was there at least a hot spring you could relax in?

We got a raw deal,

Every Woman After You

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After getting them back with “this syllabus is incomplete, please resubmit” written on both of them, I turned my syllabi in again. I changed very little, yet I got a decent grade. Weird. I suppose I changed the right few things.

New leaves are slowly uncurling from their tightly packed buds on the trees along the river. They’ve been a long time coming, poking out during the early warmth and then changing their minds during a long cruel stint of winter, returning to retard their progress.

In many ways I feel like those leaves, and I think we all should. I think we are designed to ebb and flow with the seasons, but we can’t do that much anymore because we are too technologically advanced (heat, indoor plumbing, electric lights, etc.) and so wrapped up in monetary productivity. We get up when it’s dark; we come home after it’s dark, all because of work.

How can we expect to feel natural when everything is so unnatural? I am always concerned about how people can get back to nature. Can we remember what it feels like to put our hands in cool, moist dirt? Can we revel in the stars and our place among them? Is there a way, even living in the city, to remain in tune with our natural surroundings? Read this. Or check this out for free. What about this? Or my favorite: Mother Earth News. Beware, though, that if you visit Mother Earth News, your name may or may not go on a government watch list as an environmental terrorist. I just think we should all dig our hands in the dirt every once in a while.

While I was inspecting the newly emerging leaves, I decided to turn over a new leaf, too. I am trying a new wave of positive thinking. So far, it’s working. As I walked this morning, I realized  that my favorite time of day, beside spending time with Bec in the evenings, is walking the dogs in the morning. I realized that how I frame my day with that hour determines much of how my day ends up going. I realized that I spend a good portion of everyday harboring ill-feelings or negativity.

I decided to change. I am going to try very hard to transform my thinking and speaking habits into positive ones. I have been told I should read A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle, which has to this point seemed like a lot of psychological mumbo-jumbo. I think I will try reading it, though; why not? It seems to roll everything together into one big positive blob. You can hear him talk about it on Speaking of Faith.

A Little Dry Spell

There has been a little drought in writing lately. The ground is dry and cracked. Once fertile river banks have become dry, brown wastelands peppered with dying fish and frogs. My mind is barren and filled with desolation. There is no new growth here. Or I am melodramatic.

I forgot to mention that when Adam and I were in Nashville, we saw Samantha Brown interviewing one of the guys who stands along Broadway playing a mandolin. I have called this guy a street person when I have talked about this experience with my friends, but he wasn’t a street person. He was dressed too nicely, and he was too clean. I think he must have just enjoyed making some extra cash playing his instrument for the tourists.

I was actually hoping we would bump into Samantha at one of the bars or something, maybe Loveless Cafe, but we didn’t. I had my small brush with fame, and I actually would have walked right past if Adam had not said, Is that the woman from the travel channel?